my lovely world

2010-06-25T00:58:00.002+08:00

I guess I have no choice but to face it.
I am no longer who I was.
Both outer and inner.

It was because of the change on the outer that make my inner changed too.
I guess I would never get back my perfect complexion back anytime soon.
Perhaps, if I can get it back by end of this year, I should be clapping and celebrating already.

So i guess I cant expect much recovery by the time my birthday comes.
Though I still have that little hope in me that my face would get better by that time.

I have changed my derma.
It has been a week since I visited the new derma and I see a little improvement.
So I hope it would get better soon, though I know it cant be rushed.

Meanwhile, I just keep myself occupied with all the activities that I can find to get involved.
My next 4 weeks would be packed like crazy.
2 FTB camps in the next 2 weeks, followed by 2 weeks of my lovely project Balloonning Bliss to sell balloons.

While I have been fighting with my skin problems, I know I am not alone.
Mum, Dear, and besties have been showing concern to me.
Dear's birthday this year was not celebrated beautifully due to my condition but I hope we had a good time as well.

I admit I am still avoiding meeting people whom I know in the past.
I still cant find the courage to organise a JC outing though I would love to do so.
And I don't know when I would find the courage to do so..
Do I have to wait til my face is recovered?
That would mean there is still long time till i get to see them.
Sigh...

2010-05-16T11:55:00.003+08:00

Honestly...

I am not feeling well
I am not feeling good
I feel so sucky deep inside
I feel so helpless
Or even hopeless

Everything has changed
It changes my entire life
It changes my eating habits
It changes my sleeping habits
It changes my outing habits
It changes my camwhore habits
It changes my approach when meeting friends

I start to do things that I previously didn't do
And start to stop doing things that I used to do

I am not sure how long I have to bear all this
I hate when people uses that kind of staring towards me
But I hate myself even more
Everybody around me has been asking me, " what happened to u?", " why does it happen?"
I came up with hundreds of reasons to answer them.
Yet, I myself don't know what's the real answer behind this question.
I hope I know the answer too.

I have been trying my best to overcome this
I pretend that I am not bothered by it
But in fact, I am bothered by it so much
So much so that I would just let my tears to drop when nobody sees me
Hope that it would make me feel abit better

At the same time,
I have to thank my mum who has been supporting me all this while
And a few of my close friends who showed care and concern to me.
Really appreciate them.
Thanks very much, really...

When I know that avoidance is not the solution,
Somehow I think the best solution for now is to live a new entire life of me

"Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy but at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what’s wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take “I don’t know” for an answer. you feel the way you do just because. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait." -eletheowl

2010-03-14T00:15:00.001+08:00

I know my blog is rotting.
I just don feel like updating recently until today I have the urge to blog some of my thoughts again.

It has been an awful day for me, to be frank.
It was not nice, not the one that I expected, not the one that I hoped for.
But at least, I told him wadeva I wanted to say.
The scene was not nice at all.
But I am glad that we still give each other a chance.
and deeply in our hearts, we still hope that the choice that we made is right.

On the other side, I am struggling my studies already.
Can really feel the stressed.
FA, MC, LTB, TWC, STAT...
None of them I cant master.
Quizes, Ppt, assignments are coming next week and following.
I am not prepared at all...
Sigh...

2010-01-30T01:38:00.002+08:00

One word: Shagged

That's the only perfect word to describe how I am now.
Taking 5 modules with LTB and 2.5 CCAs are really no joke.
I practically going back to school every day: Monday to Sunday, despite I only have 3-day class.

Adding on to my tuition schedule on every wed, starting from February onwards,
I really have no idea how I am going to survive this term.
But what I am glad is I feel there are changes in me ( in terms of attitude ) towards learning.
I meant positive learning attitudes.
Despite how busy I am, I feel the sense of urgency to catch up on my work.
Some presentation projects that I have been working on for this term, I have been putting alot more effort than my previous term.
I am quite enjoying the process of learning right now.

What I hate for now is because of my over-enthusiastic in finishing my work,
I feel so disheartening when the output doesnt amount as the input that I have worked to.
Well, I guess this is sth that I have to learn.
As long as there is progress, it is better than nothing.

2010-01-08T18:22:00.002+08:00

Time really flies!!!
It has been a week since school started.
My week 1 has been a fulfilling one still.
Despite 5 lessons a week, I am still enjoying gyms, CCAs, lunches and dinners with friends.
Like now, I am meeting with some of my CT group members to have dinner at POMO.

I like my term 2 timetable.
I have 2 free days in a week-wednesday and friday.
Nevertheless, I have been going to school everyweek day for this week.Haha...
Perhaps, I just love SMU so much. Lolx..

Sigh.. I am in a dilemma now over my studies and CCAs.
I dono if I should take 4 mods or 5 mods.
Because of various reasons, I wanna take 5 mods this term.
But I have dance, MIC subcomm. and bizcom commitment this term.
Worse is I have LTB for this term which alot of people say it is just a killer modules as it is too time consuming.
I thought I could be with at least one of my fren in my group since I bid that mod with 6 other friends.
Sadly, I am alone in a group in the end.
Worse, I feel my group is so easily distracted and not efficient.
I am kinda worried..
Howhowhow???
I just hope that this is just symptoms of week 1 where everybody is still in their slacking mood.
Otherwise, I would have a hard time in LTB le.

Oh well, I gtg to meet friends for dinner.
bye..

2010-01-03T01:14:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year 2010!!!

I am abit laggy now to blog..
But I think I shall try to maintain it.

Just a blink of an eye, my one month holidays are over.
I am starting school tmr!!!
I really dread going to school now.

I am happy with how I spend my holidays, despite I dono what I have been doing for this december holidays.
But I know the December holidays would be a holiday that I would never forget.
Full of both happiness and sorrows...

I found my true friends who really stood by me when I was down.
Thank you,girls!!!!
Thank you for listening to me and consoling me that night!
Thanks for the memorable christmas gift exchange too!
I am sorry I didnt blog this coz I wasnt really in the mood.
I read ur blog posts though, I was really touched by the care and concern you'all gave.
I just wanna tell you that we are alright now. :)

I also found a new buddy during this entire holiday.
We can just talk and share our stories and problems to each other.
Though in this hols, most of the time we were talking about my problems.
But I am really glad to have a new buddy in university as it is really rare to find a good friend in uni.

Lastly, I also found someone who indeed really loves me deeply.
It was through the quarrels that made us further understand each other better.
I know you feel there are many obstacles, but let's take the obstacles as a test for our relationship,k?
We are still young... :)

Now it is a brand new year of 2010!
I shall start making resolutions and make sure i accomplish them.
First and foremost, I gotta chiong for my studies this coming semester!!!
My current GPA is just so sucky that I cant find anyother person below than mine for a business student who took just 4 CU.
Sigh....
And school is starting tmr, so it means I shall start mugging now.
I hope I can find the mood to study.
Jiayou ba, Cicillia!!!! :)

2009-12-24T01:30:00.002+08:00

Can we have a good talk?
I didnt ask for a break.
I merely ask for some time to cool down and really think what we should do next.
Don't misunderstood me,plz...
Trust me, I still love you very much....

2009-12-22T23:21:00.006+08:00

Holidays are going to be over soon!!!
Omg, i think i haven had any rest lar...
Damn sianz...
I am only left with less than 2 weeks to enjoy my holidays.

Anyway, owning and driving a car is so cool!
Can go out and have supper with friends.
It was my first time. haha...
Hopefully I have more chances to hang out like that...

My holidays are mostly spent on my CCAs.
Bizcom are roughly settled on my side.
I clinched a deal with studiowu and had the contract signed.

MIC Winter Production is getting more hiong.
Tmr will be having a full day of meeting+rehearsal.
And I came up with a new concept, gotta discuss it thoroughly.
Hopefully i can leave early to meet my besties tmr.

GlA'mour are so-so.
I skipped the practice last sunday.
So I ended up lagging behind abit as my senior told me just now.
But I guess it should be alright.

I am so broke now and yet I still yearn for more shoppings and outings.
Sigh...

Sometimes I feel tired, sometimes I feel the happiness.
I don't know what I should do.

2009-12-21T09:49:00.003+08:00

What were the initial reasons 4 years back for me?
What were the initial reasons 4 years back for you?
How much do you understand me?
How much do I understand you?
Can you accept the way I am?
Can I accept the way you are?

2009-12-18T00:47:00.003+08:00

When There Was Me and You

~Vanessa Hudgens

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

Do fairytales ever become reality?

2009-12-09T00:34:00.002+08:00

Is it so difficult to get someone's trust?
I know it ain't easy.
I know your reasons not to trust me.
And I have been very careful not to break your trust to me.
But somehow it is indeed challenging to me.
Why can I trust you easily but you cant?
Is the problem really with me?
Does it mean I have to wholly dedicated my life only to you?
How about my own life?
Have you ever thought about it?

2009-12-05T18:09:00.002+08:00

Dear has gone Australia for the 3rd day.
First 2 days, I have packed myself with MIC meetings, dance practice and gym.
Wanted to meet JC friends, but most of them are not free.
So I am staying at home today.
Luckily, I found something to do today.
I helped ZiKai to do his graduation night videos.
After that, I have nothing to do again.
hmm... quite bored.

Anyway, my first tango practice yesterday was fun.
But I found myself too rigid. I couldnt really dance well.
Hopefully, I could master them quickly.
Tomorrow will be having another practice.
I shall buck up and learn them by heart.

Holidays, holidays, holidays
It's the time that we look forward to after mugging so hard for exams.
But now I don have anything to do during holidays.
Feel my life is so empty..

2009-12-02T11:47:00.002+08:00

Amazing...
I didnt sleep for the whole night!
Seriously, I couldnt sleep at all.
The most was just closing my eyes.
After blogging at around 4am, I tried to sleep.
But still, I was not successful.
So before I could sleep, my mum's alarm rang at 5.30am.
And so, I also woke up to help my mum instead.
Even my mum was shocked.
She thought I had some problems.
She asked me what happened that caused me to have sleepless night.
haha...
But I seriously don't know what is bothering me...

2009-12-02T03:50:00.002+08:00

It's a weird night for me...
I cant sleep no matter how hard I tried... And look at the time now,here I am blogging using my phone.
It has been a long time since I have sleepless night.
I realise I juz have to keep myself busy to make myself tired so that I can sleep at night.
I did nothing whole day. Had my hair rebonded. That's all.
Dear will be flying to Melbourne later at night. He would come back only on the 8th dec night.
I dono wad I can do during dis period.
Hopefully my MIC productions will keep me occupied.
I wanna go out,chill,shopping wif friends.
But I find myself asking who my friends are...

2009-11-30T00:06:00.003+08:00

Sometimes a small gesture can mean a lot of things.
A small gesture express how you feel deep inside.
Perhaps, one might not realise how impactful a small gesture can be.
By just keeping silent, frowning your eyebrows, or offering your hand, your loved ones would be sensitive enough to feel how do u feel inside.
Thanks for telling me how you feel an telling me how I feel too.
I somehow don't know what I have been doing recently too.

Uni workload seems to have segregated us further.
We used to go out and spend times together alot.
I miss those days when we would just walking aimlessly along the beach, watching the night view at Skygarden in Suntec, or even talking on the phone for hours.
But many things have changed now.
We used to have so much to talk even we often met and spend times together.
Now, we seldom met but when I am trying to call u, I realise I don't know what to talk about.
I hope this is just temporary and everything will fall back to how we used to be soon.
At least for this December holiday...

Seeing things happening around me is scary.
Some of my friends are breaking up with their loved ones after such a long maintained relationships.
I hope it doesnt apply to us.

2009-11-29T23:17:00.002+08:00

Staring at my laptop screen for so long.
I dono how to blog.
I have so much thoughts running through my mind now.
I cant decide where to start from.
I shall wait till I have sorted out them...

2009-11-26T17:56:00.002+08:00

Oh yes! Finally, my term 1, sem 1 in SMU is over!
Time really flies...
Blink, blink, blink....
15 weeks just pass by without me knowing what I have learnt in SMU.
It may sound hilarious!
I have been complaining that I have tonnes of things to do, projects, assignments, meetings,etc.
Frankly speaking, I really don't know what I have learnt.

If I were to really mention some, I would mention I have only learnt business law and analytical skill concepts then.
The rest of the modules that I took this term are quite fluff.
Well, Academic writing was a killer but I really learnt nothing other than the format of a research paper.
Is it me or the modules/curriculum that I took this term?
I don't know...

I realise I am really someone who cannot take exam.
I dread when I am going to study.
Perhaps, it was the right move for me to study in SMU such that my grade is not just determined by exam grades.
Guess what. While I was doing the business law exam, I actually stopped and thinking why do we still need to take exam. Sigh...
Am I just not motivated enough to do academically well?
I don't know what's wrong with me.
What happened to the "me" who was able to chiong like hell previously in secondary school?
I have become lazier and lazier.
Where are the resolutions that I made after A level?
Study hard, get high GPA,wanna get scholarship...
But I have achieved none of them.
So disappointed with myself...
But I just cant bring myself to study hard when I am supposed to.
And the worse is I dono the reason why...
So how do I improve myself?

Now term 1 is over.
I guess now it's the time for me to do some reflections on what I have and have not done during the past 15 weeks.
But then again, reflect and setting goal is one thing.
Doing them is another...

Cicillia,
what the hell are you doing?
what do you really want to do?

can someone answer for me?...

2009-11-21T16:45:00.001+08:00

MY LAST PAPER IS ON 26th NOVEMBER 2009!
I will be free after fighting the monster until 1pm on that day!

2009-11-06T23:27:00.002+08:00

End of Week 12

*Breathe*
Finally, it is end of week 12, the most happening week with 3 presentation in a row.
CT presentation was quite okay,I think.
We managed to make Prof laughed.
haha.. Hope she likes our creative ideas on "improvement of dining experience in Hawker centre".
BGS presentation was just normal.
I would the standard was just in between the best and the worst who presented in that week.
While the last AS presentation done today was kinda a last-minute work.
So didnt expect any good grades then.

Plus, the bidding period.
Omg, it is so crazy.
I am seriously think that my batch of students are really super duper kiasu lar.
Everyone bid 1 module til so high.
Some seniors even commented that our batch is really spoiling the market!
Oh well, we are having a hyper-inflation rightt now.
I am considered quite lucky to get 3 modules in first window.
But I need at least to get 1 more mod in window 2.
Hope I can get it.

So week 12 presentation week has passed.
I count myself lucky to have my AW lesson free in my busiest week.
Thank God!

Now I am entering to "REPORTS" week of 13.
CT, BGS,Visual Representation and AW research paper.
Tmr will be doing the CT project.
And the rest haven started.
Sigh...

Another sleep deprivation week... =(

2009-10-31T02:14:00.002+08:00

End of Week 11

Well done! Next week is my most "happening" week!
3 presentations in a row!
Monday is CT presentation, Tuesday is BGS, and Friday is AS presentation!
OMG!
Trust me, I have the busiest ever schedule in school today.
From 8.30am, I have back-to-back class till 1.30pm.
Then from 2pm, I have back-to-back of 3 meetings all the way til 7+pm.
Then 7.30pm, I headed to watch Ballare seniors to perform.

Actually all my group projects are not stable yet.
Feel so insecure...
Sigh.. Hopefully my group and I manage to do it next week.

And I got my results back for AW Essay 2, CT Idea Journal, BGS individual project and Biz Law mid term already.
AW is C+( again! so disappointing), CT Idea Journal is A- ( thanks to all my friends who gave me some ideas), BGS individual project is 14/20 (after moderation should be B+ or A-) and surprisingly Biz Law is 10/15 ( after moderation should be B or B+).

I am only left with AS mid-term that I have yet to receive.
The rest are my upcoming presentations, projects, reports and final exam.
Last paper would be on 26th November.

1 more month to endure...
Keep going...

2009-10-15T00:10:00.002+08:00

Midst of week 9

It has been a month since I blog.
That was because I was speechless with my incapability.
I was so disappointed with everything I have now.
C+ for my AW Assignment 1.
AW assignment 2 was even poorly done.
Biz Law mid term was written out of question.
AS mid term was not well done too.
What the hell am I doing?

This coming week 10 and all the way to week 15 is gonna be a tough journey for me.
Week 11 is bizcom bazaar.
Week 12 is all my 3 presentation in a row.
Week 13 and 14 is subsmission of 3 reports.
Week 15 is final exam.

Holy shit I am...

2009-09-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

End of week 5, coming week 6 of school

Yes, time files.
5 weeks of school has gone,
My week 5 is a crazy week.
Full with relief-ing and tutitioning.
But this coming week 6, I am gng to stop the relief-ing le..
There are simply too much work to complete despite of the one-day of hari raya public hols.

AS, AW, BGS Assignments, BGS project research and BL presentation next week!
And the hell of CT 30 ideas, I only did 4 of them and I have to pass up next sat.
Omg, I am seriously sucks at drawing. Cant draw at all.
Hopefully the prof would understand wad I draw for my "creative" ideas.
And pray hard that I would get at least 20 before the submission deadline.

And,I failed my samba and MIC auditions.
It's okay. I am trying sth new now.
Gl'Amour under Ballare.
Learnt the basic steps of tango today.
So fun... Haha..

Okay, get back to my 5th ideas now...

2009-09-06T12:50:00.002+08:00

Coming week 4 of school

This coming week 4 is really a crazy week for me.
Damn lots of assignment to hand in+usual weekly assignment+project research.
Luckily I am not working this coming week except 1 grup tuition and 1 private tuition.
This week is particularly busy,mainly because of my Acad Writing Essay to be submitted on thursday morning.
Just met the prof to discuss my outline yesterday, but it didnt turn out well.
Oh well, so good luck to me with the rest of my Essay. =(

Despite all that, I am determined to pick up dance class.
So I will start learning Waltz from tmr onwards!
Yay! I so look forward to it...
I will take it as my destress activity.. =)

I am still waiting for my both MIC and Samba Masala results.
I wonder I get to know them...
Sigh...

2009-09-03T01:26:00.002+08:00

Look at the time now and I am still awake.
Wednesday is my free day of my school.
But this free day is practically my working day.
Relief-ing in the morning and grup tution at nite.
So I can only start doing my work at nite at 10pm plus.
Finally I have finished my confusing AS hw and my AW thesis outline ( first draft).
But I still have AW reading and BL reading to go... Sigh...
Gotta finish AW reading tmr before 3.30pm class and BL reading on friday morning.
But I got BGS project meeting at 5.30 after my AW class.
Sigh..
I hope I can finish my BL reading for this week's lesson...

I went for MIC audition on tuesday,
Damn me! I was so nervous that I couldnt sing well!
I sang Yi Ge Ren Shen Huo ( the song that I am mostt comfortable with),
yet, I was still freaked out!R
Raaggghhh.... Hopefully they let me in the performing team.
Results should be out soon.

Oh ya, I signed up for Latin audtion too.
It will be on this friday.
But I am still thinking if I shud go.
First, I don have straped heels.
Second, I seriously like a wood.
Don think I can really dance so I think I better don go malu myself.
Third, I missed out the workshop that the arrange for us.
So likely, I am not going ba...

Oh ya, I forgot to wish Mdm Jamilah on teachers' day.
I feel so guilty.
I am thinking of sending her our class photo or something.
Hopefully, I can get it done by this week...

Alright, I am still doing relief-ing tmr morning.
Time to sleep....
Nites..

2009-08-30T23:06:00.002+08:00

Okay! Just a short post here.

Went to Freshmen Bash at Zouk on thursday.
It wasnt really fun.
It was more of self-entertaining coz the programmes were not very interesting.
So basically we just cam-whoring within my FTB group.
All photos are already on facebook.
Drank abit and I already felt giddy.
So they asked me to stop le..
Otherwise, I would not able to walk straight..
Waste money sia... =(

Then, I had MIC sleepover in school on sat and sunday.
It was a fun camp.
Full with singing!!!
Yay! Hopefully i can get in thru the audition on this coming tuesday.
So I can be in the preforming team.
Wish me good luck!

Omg, week 3 is really a crazy week for me.
Hopefully I can manage them well.
Wish me good luck too.

Alright, time to sleep now.
Damn tired...

2009-08-26T16:55:00.003+08:00

Week 2 of school

I am still as busy but less busy than last week.
So here I am to blog.

Projects are starting very soon.
I have 2 new groups formed for BGS and BL.
I guess I have to stop working now or else my grades will be suffered.

Seeing my friends are all so hiong in their studies, I feel so scared now.
They are really really hiong.
Trust me.
They study in school library of Group Study Room (GSR) everyday for hours and sometimes almost half a day in sch!
They often asked me and the rest of my camp mates to study together.
Unfortunately, none of it I could make it.
Partly, it is because I am working.

I am supposed to nap now but I feel guilty in doing so because the rest aree mugging in school.
Ragghh.. So scary lar..
Nevertheless, I have finished my AS and AW homework tmr. Phew..
Time to read up on BL again...
Last lesson, I didnt finish my reading and consequently, I was lost in the class. =(

Oh ya, went to Vivace last friday.
I signed up for MIC ( Music Interactive Club) as my CCA.
Adition on this coming tuesday.
Hopefully I can pass sia..

Then, I attended Ballare ( Ballroom dance) info session last nite too.
I am kinda interested in taking part in their even, "Gl'Amour'' whereby you join, get training to dance and to perform during that event in Feb 2010.
I didnt dare to join as regular trainer yet.
Perhaps I see how my progress is for the "Gl'Amour" ba...

Alright, I gotta go and be ready for tuition class tonite.

2009-08-21T00:18:00.002+08:00

First week of school...
Without me knowing, this week is almost over.
This week has been a crazy week for me.
First week of school with full of tuitions.
I was not so hiong even when I was having my hols.
I am quite shagged now actually.
But I think my body timer has already tuned to the clock of switching on as early as 6.30 am and off as late as 1am.

So I am here trying to read my BUSINESS LAW (BL) textbook.
Damn it! It's seriously a damn heavy content.
My brain has already switched off when I had not even finished the second page.
I wonder how I am going to survive tmr ( my first biz law lesson)
Just pray hard that my prof is good. =P

Other modules that I have attended so far are Creative Thinking (CT), Academic Writing (AW), Business, Government and Society (BGS).
First lesson of CT already got project and it is due next monday.
Damn sianz... My groupmates are mia now despite me have sent a few emails to them.
BGS was interesting, I would say.
It was like some of my GP favourite topics.
Hopefully, I will be alright for this module.
As for AW, good luck to me coz english has never been my good friend before.
Sigh...

So I have to survive longest day of lesson tmr.
Will be having BL and Analytical Skill (AS) back to back.
Then followed by the Vivace which is our CCA day.
Hopefully, I managed to decide which CCA to join tmr.

Alright, gotta check for tmr's classes and it's time to slp.
Nitez...

2009-08-15T21:42:00.005+08:00

Okay! Finally, I am here to blog!

It really has been a busy week for me.

So sad! Last week of hols before school starts, yet I am so busy with soo many things.

There are simply alot of things happenned during the past 2 weeks.

From that sucky BOSS bidding, Caretalyst Camp, and most importantly, my 21st birthday

Skip all the sucky BOSS bidding in first window, coz I got my mods on 2nd window. *phew*

Caretalyst camp was okay okay.
My group is a fun group though. So we had fun among ourselves.

And now the main highlight, "My 21st Birthday!"

I have alot of people to thank for!
My mum, especially, thanks v much for preparing all the food for my friends who came

My sis, thanks v much for coming all the way from Batam to attend my 21st birthday celebration.

My besties, who came and really moved me into tears when they gave me another surprise gift.

And especially Carling, who took all the pretty pictures for me. ( I still feel that the pictures taken were not enuf,hehe)

My girlfriends and army guys, who gave me the pretty SWATCH watch.

And especially Eugenia, who came all the way to attend my celebration despite the rest could not make it.

Not to forget, Shimin and Kane, who came all the way to my house in the morning to pass me the present.

Also, my family who also cake to fill in the joy.
Lastly, my dear, who bought the pretty cake for me! :)

Here are some of the pretty photos that Carling took!

2009-08-13T00:37:00.001+08:00

I have been soo busy days and night.
No time to update my blog.
But I will blog my 21st birthday once I got the pictures from Carling.
Okay, I gtg slp...
Nitex...

2009-08-02T00:22:00.003+08:00

Went to Botanical Garden today ( Saturday) with Mrs Ong ( aka Ms Tan Shiok Lee ) and her family with Carling and Janet.

But it was a last minute meet up, and I was in school working and my attire was damn la ta.

Sigh... And my face has not recovered yet.

So I didnt have the mood to take pictures today.

Sorry, Carling and Janet.
It is not I didnt want to take picture with u'all but I really didnt feel like seeing the ugly side of me.

But then we had fun entertaining Ms Tan's two precious babies, especially Lloyd.

He is really cute!!!

Here is the pics...

Had a great time with them! Hope Ms Tan had a great time too! :)

More outings to Botanical Gardens next time,k?

P.S. : Thanks Carling for the Kinder Joy!!! :)

2009-08-01T00:21:00.002+08:00

I have been feeling low recently.
That's all because of the Bondue Camp that I cant make it due to their lousy management.
Anyway, yesterday I spent almost the whole day in SMU.
Did the ID verification, attended library briefing and Community Service briefing.
And the Bondue Run 1 was going on yesterday.
Arggh.. feel jealous with those who can make it.
Seriously, I feel so angry to be sacrificed for not able to go because of their mismanagement.
It is really not fair to me.
Okay, I shall stop complaining about the Bondue.
Otherwise, I wont be happy for the rest of the days-which is not worth it.

Today, I didnt go to work coz there were enuf relief teacher in the school and today is just a short day.
So I manage to get my full slp till 11am.
So shiok.. It has been a long time since I wake up at this time.
But I have a busy day today.
I was busy with making homemade chocolate ice cream and chocolate cornflakes.
The ice cream is nice!
So I shall do it for my b'd celebration coming next week.

Then, I went to do facial.
Oh my, i got lots of pimples this time round.
I think the beautician was abit irritated with my many pimples to be extracted.
And the usual beautician whom I always made appointment with is no longer working there.
So sad.. I think I prefer her than the today's beautician.
Coz today, the new beautician made my eyebrow looks weird.
Sigh.. I dono what to do with it.
Hopefully, it's not so obvious.
But still, I feel I look weird now.
Sigh sigh sigh...

After facial, I got a hair cut at my aunt's salon.
Then went to amk to meet mum to have dinner.
I said I want to buy a new clothes for myself for my 21st birthday.
But mum didnt allow me to, because she said I have been spending alot on clothes this year.
BIG SIGH!!!!

Alright, I haven really settled with who to invite for my birthday.
As the house is small, it cant accomodate alot of people.
So I really got to plan well on who to invite.
Anyway, just a simple gathering with the love ones should be enough.

2009-07-28T18:41:00.004+08:00

Finally, I got photos from Melvin for the Arts Camp 2009.

But he didnt take alot of photos though..

Contemporary dance

Cheerleading

Hayla Hotsa

Revolve

Family of Arts Camp 2009

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2009-07-28T18:29:00.004+08:00

Belated Class 23/07 Birthday Outing on Sunday at Billy Bombers @ Cityhall.
I was so angry about the BONDUE camp and I didnt blog this yesterday.
Sigh...
Anyway, the class outing was fun.
Had lunch at Billy Bombers and some of us went bowling aftr lunch.

Thanks Junwei for helping us to get back $6.

We accidentally missed him out in the photo when he was arguing with the counter.

Fret not, we can always have another outing next time,k? =P

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2009-07-28T00:47:00.004+08:00

Omg, this is scary!
My blog has been spread around the Arts Camp organising committee.
They found out my blog post about Arts camp.
They copied and pasted my blog post as well as the link, and emailed it around the org comm.
And alll of them said that they were touched by my post.

I didnt noe my simple post about how I enjoyed the camp could actually touch their hearts deeply.
Mainly, I guess they have worked so hard to plan this camp and they are glad that the freshies enjoyed them.
Once again, thank you to the organising committe of Arts Camp 2009 for all the experience that you'all gave.
Thank you.

2009-07-27T22:27:00.002+08:00

Okay, I am soo pissed with the BONDUE Camp management.
How could them miss out my names in my registration email.
I am seriously damn angry with this.
This is not my fault because there was confusions in their management and so I have to be sacrificed to be put under waiting list now coz both runs are full now.
And there are actually alot of crashers from non-business school who is going to the camp.
This is ridiculous if business students don get to go for the camp while other schools students get to go.
If I don get to go the camp, I wil be seriously pissed off!

What I can do now is to wait for their reply and pray hard that they can slot me in...

2009-07-25T21:39:00.011+08:00

Alright, these are some of the photos for my FTB camp.
Pictures speak thousands of words...

KIMCHII WARRIOR!!!!

2nd day: Rafting

Boundless room

3rd day:

self-entertaining games

After Final Challenge

OUR BEST GROUP : KIMCHII!!! Cheers

( Who are we? ) Kimchii warrior!

( What do we say? )

Kimchii yo, kimchii yo, kimchii aneong haseyo

Kimchii da, kimchii da, kimchii kamsahamida

Kimchii.... Acha Acha Fighting!!!

MUSHASI Sha Sha Sha!!!!

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2009-07-25T19:05:00.008+08:00

Yohoo!!! I am finally back from Arts Camp 2009.
It was an enriching experience!!!
Those various workshops that I attended were definitely so cool!

For the first time, I was the flyer in cheerleading, ( it was scary at first, but fun)
For the first time, I danced contemporary dance, ( though I couldnt even do the strecthing )
For the first time, I danced hiphop dance, ( though I didnt have tt kind of attitude )
For the first time, I danced ballroom dance, ( manageable and fun )
For the first time, I danced latin dance, ( complicated but it's cool)
For the first time, I danced Aceh dance. ( the Hayla Hotsa song is stuck in my head now )
For the first time, I tried the percussion dance in Samba Masala. ( just realise my sense of rythmic is quite bad )
For the first time, I tried to play a guitar. (my fingers got cramps aftr awhile)
For the first time, I was in the bash. ( though I am not a drinker and lousy dancer)
For the first time, I was the main character in a musical. ( coz nobody else in the group wanted act fierce)

There were so many first time and perhaps it could be a once-in-life-time experience that I could get from the various workshops.
Except,there was a workshop on singing which I am familiar with.
But the DON'T FORGET THE LYRICS game was fun too.

And my section, who played the musical actually won the champion among 4 sections.
That was because we really did damn funny stuff inside the musical.
And the prize that each of us got is Dr. Martens 8 Eyelets Boots!!
I have checked online and it usually cost over $100.
That's soo cool!
I am gonna get the white one. yay!!!

Their goody bag and food were awesome too!
Met many brilliant friends there too!
Seriously, a camp that cost me only $22 for all the tangible and intangible things is definitely worth it!

Okay, now I am confused with which CCA I should join.
There are really a few that I wanna try. =x
But I don have the time...

2009-07-22T19:46:00.004+08:00

Hello!!! I am BACK from FTB camp!
Yes! It is the Freshmen Team Building Camp.
Went for Run 2.
And I want to say that it was awesome coz my group,KIMCHII, got the BEST group!
Omg, damn unexpected lar...
First day, was not really fun,
Coz all of us had not really known each other.
BUT after some team building activities, we start to be more comfortable with each other.
especially that damn frustrating Poison IV spiderweb activity.
So day 2 onwards, we started to have fun already.
Rafting was really cool!!!
I nv done that before and our group was so funny lar.
Our raft was soo CHUI ( lousy and unstable), that even the instructor who came over to check our raft told us not to be panic if it topples half way in the sea.
Fortunately, our team spirit was kinda improved, so we could make it all the way!
Cool man! I really like that activity v much!
So after that RAFTING, our team really became closer together and we start to feel more comfortable to each other to voice out.
The rest of activities, I can say, our team coordinated really very well!

Campfire at night.
Was having skits and cheers from all the section.
KIMCHII is in MUSHASHI section.
And our cheers are damn cool, we got 2nd for our cheers!
3rd for our skits.
Our section won the overall for last nite too!
Then we ended the campfire like partying the whole night!
Music out loud, dancing, jumping, cheering until 11 plus.
Guess that's their Culture.

Day 3, supposed to have a mini amazing race, but it was raining this morning.
So it has been changed to cluster indoor game stations.
KIMCHII was just having fun, trying our best to complete the game.
None of us expected that we won the BEST GROUP among all!!!
KIMCHII is really awesome!!! Yeah! :)

Here is our KIMCHII's Values Contract!

I guess we have achieved all the above stated in the contract! =P
Gng to have FTB group outing because we got a $30 voucher for an ice cream shop at Iluma.
yay!!!

Okay, I am quite shagged now. Just finish unpacking, washing all smelly camp clothes.
And I am gng to pack another 3 days camp of Arts Camp in few 1 hour later.
Bye...

2009-07-19T19:17:00.002+08:00

Have been busy packing for my camp stuff.
Other than waiting for ur call until i fell alslp for another 2 hour in the afternoon.
Continue doing my stuff again until I saw the clock already ticking to 6pm.
U still nv call me.
Means we wont be meeting for one whole week liao lor...
Bye...
Off to camp till sat.
Don think i I wil have the energy to online on wed aftr my FTB.

2009-07-18T22:55:00.003+08:00

I realise I have been lazy to update my blog.
Not like I have nothing to update, just that I am lazy to type them out.

Well, I have gotten my 1st BIRTHDAY present from dear last monday!
Yeah!!!Watched Ice Age 3:Dawn of Dinosour at Grand Cathay.
After that, we had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market.
Then, we just walked all the way from Dobyghaut to Orchard.
Passed by Tangs Plaza,so we decided to go in to look for nice wallet.
So I caught a Carlo Rino wallet that was on 20% disc, dear just decided to buy that as my birthday present since I had been hinting to him that my wallet is alr spoilt long time ago.
haha.. So yay!!! :)

Tuesday, I went for the Orientation Career Services briefing in SMU.
It was a short briefing on how to plan our career path with our career counselor.
The briefing was started with a simple introduction from everyone in that class.
Each of us need to say an adjective from first letter of our name.
So mine will be : CHEERFUL CICILLIA
It sounds cool, I think. Guess I will stick to that. :)
And the next person have to say the all the name before you.
Guess what! I had to recite all the names as I was the last one to introduce my name.
Luckly, my memory wasnt soo bad.
Only missed 2 names in between out of like ard 40 names.
Oh ya,the seminar room was cosy. I think I really like the environment of pedagogy style.
At least, it will keep me awake.
So now I am proud to say that I chose SMU is based on MY choice.

Friday, went cycling with dear from east coast park to changi village and back to east coast again in 4 hours.
Injured my toes though.
Coz on the way there, there was a super narrow path for us to cycle and there was a woman in front of me that refused to brake. So I had to sudden brake my bike and my toes' flesh was scraped off by the stone wall on my left.
It is painful now especially when I am bathing.
Hopefully it wil recover by tmr.
Otherwise, I dono how I am gng to endure this pain during my tough FTB camp on next monday.

And today, I went for Alumni choir concert debried this morning.
We discussed about our future plans of this alumni choir.
And it all sounds cool.
Carolling is coming soon!!!
Really feel like commit all the way, but apparently I cant.
Coz my mum was kinda against me for going back to choir.
Hmm... see how it goes aftr my school term starts ba...

Then was busy packing for my FTB camp.
Next week I am gng for FTB camp and Rev Arts Camp which is back to back one after another.
So I had to prepare 9 sets of clothes in total.
Sounds crazy but I think I kinda managed to dig out all my shirts and shorts.
Mostly are my secondary school PE attire, class t-shirts, house tee as well as my JC's ones.
And I think Arts camp is gng to be soo cool!
We actually have to prepare 1 set of casual clothes and 1 pair of heels for our BASH.
I don't noe what casual clothes I shud bring sia.
Scared I am under-dress or over-dress lor...\
Then I will be damn paiseh...

Well, so my FTB camp is on 20-22 july and Arts camp is 23-25 july.
26 July is class outing.
Guess I will have a fulfilling week next week!
Yay! I am so looking forward to it! :)

Oh well, such a pretty long post. haha..

2009-07-13T00:51:00.006+08:00

Finally,, I got the photos from dear that was taken during the Sky-dining at Mount Faber that I planned for his birthday.
Actually there was a photographer who took a photo for us before we started our sky-dining.
BUT the 8R photo + 2 small ones cost $35.
So expensive!!!

So here are some of the pictures that we managed to self-take on the cable car itself.

As all the photos were self-taken, the quality of most of the photos were not good.

But I am thankfuk enuf to stil have some nicer ones.. :)

Perhaps, gotta learn the skill how to self-take photos of ourselves.. haha...

Alright, gtg to slp.

Bye.

2009-07-11T01:31:00.003+08:00

TGIF, I had a good rest after school.
I napped from 5pm to 8pm again.
I guess that has become a must-do-thing in my daily routine nowadays.
Coz otherwise, I would be so restless.
Sigh,bad habit...

Well, actually I am quite looking forward to see my school starts.
Coz I think I am quite bored with my life now.
Although I feel scared when I am thinking that my uni term starts soon,I think I rather to be scared than to be bored.
Scared because I will be dealing with things that I am totally unfamiliar, things/ppl that I might not be interested at all.
But I guess those are the learning points that we have to take in our lives.
And those challenges actually make us a better and stronger person if we are able to handle them.
I know challenges are ain't easy to overcome,but I believe if there is a will, there is a way.
As long as you are willing to do it, you wiil be able to do it eventually if you put in your heart to do it.

2009-07-07T22:44:00.002+08:00

I realise my brain has not been working or rather has not out into good use for the past few months.
Until today, I start to think alot.
From morning, on my way to school to work, I start thinking alot of things that happens around me.
Family, friends, work, school,etc...
Perhaps I feel that I am quite left out now.
I kinda feel that I lost touch to the society now.
Have I been wrapping myself up into my own world and all these cause me to be oblivious for everything?
It's time to let go sth that is less important....
But wad r things are less important?
Everything is important to me.
But I cant have it all.

2009-07-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

Finally, I have settled my TFL today.
So I guess I am only left with uploading a passport photo up and all my stuff should be roughly settled.
Waiting for FTB camp to start and I guess I will be very busy after that.
Pray hard that everything goes well.

Anyway, I went kbox with dear and his 2 bros.
Tot that today is weekday so kbox student price would be cheaper than Top One since we started at 2pm also.
But i didnt know that Kbox is so screwed now.
First, they said today is youth day so no student package.
So we ended up pay $3 more each.
Second, I didnt noe their K Happy package is only available a package of 3 hours until the end of our session.
Not 2pm-7pm anymore.
So we were asked to leave at 5.30pm despite there are empty rooms in front of us!
I was quite pissed off honestly.
So we didnt leave until one of the waitress was quite fed up and told us that our time was up at 6.10pm hastily.
I guess I have the worst experience of kboxing there. =(
So not worth it.

2009-07-06T00:35:00.002+08:00

Okay, I have to blog this.
This is so scary!!!
When I opened my gmail account, my inbox was flooded with almost 20 emails from international students from SMU.
They sent an email to me ( and everyone that they could find in the recipient list of emails that SMU sent before) to get to know us before the school starts.
I don't know if I am too paranoid and exagerrating it.
But I don't remember we did this in secondary sch and JC before our school term starts.
I dono how should I react to this. =/
Hopefully things are not as bad as I think.

2009-07-04T17:07:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my last day teaching my own classes.
Coz the new timetable is already out and that take effects from next week onwards.
So from next week, I will be doing just purely ad hoc relief.
The past few days when I told my classes that I wont be teaching them anymore, they were actually asking me to continue to teach them.
Coz they don want to a permanent teacher whom they think it is boring to teach them.
It seems quite bad that they even start to call their new teacher nicknames way before they have the lessons with the new teacher.
Well, hopefull they can adapt and do well for their studies aftr I left.

But I created another facebook account to add them so they wont see my unglam photos tagged by my friends! haha..
So when ppl search my name in facebook, there will be 2 accounts of the my name. :)

Btw, just finish doing my SMU online matriculation.
Thank goodness, they have another ad-hoc window for online matriculate.
Otherwise I cant sign up for all my various camps and briefings.
Finally, almost everything is settled, except for uploading photograph and TFL application.
Guess I gotta settle it by next week.

Talking about camps, I am gng for 3 camps!
Haha.. It seems crazy but I hope it's fun.
But 1 of the camp is actually a compulsory camp for all freshmen to attend, i.e Freshman Team Building Camp.
Heard that one is like OBS camp!
Omg, it has been a long time since I execrsise.
I gotta go exercise to build up mmy stamina before I suffer. =(
Then the other 2 camps are Arts camp and Bondue Camp respectively.
Hopefully I see familiar faces there.

For the academic part, the whole BIDDING system is so scary sia..
I guess I wil be so blur lar..
Everything is so complicated.
Hopefully, I can manage it.
haiz...

Alright, today is my rest day.
Have been staying at home facebooking and happy farming. =x

More picture from Carling's DSLR that give the bestt quality photos....

All the pictures are so lovely!!!! I simply love them.

2009-06-30T23:05:00.004+08:00

Omg, I have been busy fighting H1N1 at the school that I am relief-ing.
School started yesterday and it was a havoc there.
It was so messy because there were alot of new arrangement made to minimise the contact of students.
Twice in daily temperature takings,new staggered recess timing,sitting arrangement in the canteen, briefing on online learning, yada yada...
This is worsened by the LOA of some teachers that cause further shortage in resources to fight this H1N1 in school.
Basically I had been walking up and down more than 10 times yesterday.
And the worse is I still need to teach (til new timetable is out) without any laptop and materials given.
Good luck to me! =(
Now I only hope the new timetable will be out by next week! Please....

On top of my working, i have been settling my SMU stuff.
Paid the $200 confirmation fee,
Went for the medical check up and paid $19.25.
I seriously think that the school is blood sucker lar..
Need to pay this and that...
Hope that I gain something in return from that school so that it makes me feel all these payment are worthwhile.

Next is going to settle my tuition fee loan soon.
And I seriously need to settle all my camps date.
The worse part is I have not done my matriculation.
That makes the whole process of registration so confusing and complicated now.
Gaaaaa.............
Hopefully everyhing goes well. =x

Alright, tmr meeting the sops ( mostly the clique) for KTV-ing at Top One.
But I can only meet them aftr I finish my relief teaching.
But stil, I look forward to that.
Cant wait to go crazy wif them again! Oppp... =x

2009-06-27T22:12:00.022+08:00

Yohoo!!!! I had an exciting and enjoyable week!!!
Tons of photos to upload.
But of course I wont upload them all.
Just picked the nice ones...
haha...

Thursday, 25 June 2009

Met dear to watch movie.
Ghost of Girlfriends Past.
The plot was kinda funny at first, but the ending is kinda expected.

Then we had dinner at WARAKU at The Heeren.
Most of the food there are quite pricey.
But they were very nice!!!

At least those we ( I ) ordered werew nice.

Especially the tempura sushi that is served in a very long plate.

It was so crunchy!!! Yumyum.....

Friday, 26 June 2009

Old Friends, New Melodies.

AJ alumni choir represented a wonderful concert on 26th June 2009 at YMS arts centre.

It was such an enjoyable concert!!!
Thank you everyone for all the effort put in during theses past few months.

Thanks to all the audience who came to our concert!

Thanks to my lovely juniors who are so thoughful and bought me the purple flower.

And thanks to the senior who gave me a flower too.

Thank you very much. Really appreciate them!

Stil have more photos at other people's camera.

Waiting for them to send me...

Saturday, 27 June 2009

Sentosa outing with Besties!!!!
Finally, 5 of us can gather today!

After like so long ya...

We are soo busy. sigh.

At least, we managed to meet to have fun aftr so long...
Yay!!!

Crazy photos... =P

It was just a simple relax suntanning (except me) and eating activities.
Yet, it was a heart-warming gathering for all of us

Enjoyed myself today! Especially with my new camera, so just click click and click! =P

How I wished I can stop the time right now.

P.S to Carling: U owe me one KINDER JOY!!! HAHA.... =P

2009-06-21T21:43:00.004+08:00

I am back from Batam!!!
I reached sg on friday's nite.
But I had a crazy Saturday schedule yesterday.
Morning was having alumni choir practice and then straight away went to meet mum to work.
Didnt manage to have lunch lor...
Was so hungry!!!!
At the end, I only ate 2 meals yesterday coz my lunch was at 4pm plus...
So ke lian....

Batam Trip was so-so.
It was just a back-to-home trip coz my house has already repaired.
Went back with mum and cousins...
So have been spending alot of time on shopping.
But I didnt manage to buy anything for myself except a T-shirt.
And I did classic pedicure there!!!
It was damn cheap lar...
So I got pretty purple toenails now... yay!!!

I have been rotting at home today.
Have been using my lappy to surf net around, checking SMU website, tuition fee, etc.
I realise I should have done my online matriculation on the first window.
Damn me!
Now I missed the deadlines and I have to wait for the 2nd window next month.
And so I realise my calender is gng to be packed like hell.
haiz..
So regret for not matriculating on the first window.
It's all because of the stupid confirmation fee of $200.
Otherwise I would have done the matriculation on the first window.
sigh..sigh..sigh...

2009-06-16T16:45:00.008+08:00

Okay, I realise my blog posts have been too wordy...
Shall post up the pictures taken during sunday, 14th June, celebrating Eugenia's 19th Birthday at Manhattan Fish Market.

Birthday girl, Eugenia!

The next birthday outing would be the CLASS BIRTHDAY outing!!! Hopefully many ppl can turn up....

2009-06-16T16:22:00.002+08:00

Sigh....
I am supposed to go back to Batam today!
Yet, my dear little cousin refused to go back today.
So gotta wait till tmr then can go back.
But the problem is I gotta be back to sg by friday.
In the end, I will only back in Batam for ard 3 days?
Wth lar...
Cant do my shopping there le...
And obviously I cant do my makeover package there too...
Sigh...Sigh...Sigh....

Dreams don't come true...

2009-06-15T21:51:00.002+08:00

I am simply stuck with my laptop for the whole day today.
Have been transfering all my photos from my cousin's comp to my own laptop.
And I realise I have around thousands of photos to be transferred!

As I am gng back to Batam tomorrow or wednesday, I am gng to develop my photos there.
So afte the compilations of my 2 years of JC life in AJ, I have 315 photos to be developed as of now! Omg, it gonna make me broke! But I cant filter any more photos le coz all seems to be so lovely and cant be missed out from my memory.
Partly around 2/3 of the photos are my choir photos.
So I suddenly kiinda miss AJ choir, despite those vigorous practices that were up to 4 times a week in my JC life.
Though I am currently in alumni choir,frankly speaking, the sense of belonging is not so there yet.
Perhaps I am singing with different group of people.

Okay, I gtg to eat my dinner and bathe le...
Look at the time now and yet I haven done all those things. =x

2009-06-14T15:10:00.004+08:00

Wohoo.... Finally I got my OWN laptop!
I bought HP Pavilion dv4-1413TX at $1,299!
I would think it is a very good deal with all the specs that it offers!
But then no more white laptop for me coz HP only got black colour.. :(
Wahaha.. Feel so shiok that I have my own laptop now.
No more sharing with my cousin anymore! Yeah!!!

Anyway, I am so broke now.
Have been spending soo much lar...
Digital Camera, Laptop, clothes, food, transport, yad yada....
Gotta save now...

2009-06-12T23:24:00.004+08:00

hello,i am still alive!haha...

Have been busy doing my own stuff this week!
Own stuff means stuff that I really want to do! Yay!
No feel pressurised to do sth bcoz of others' ignorance! Yeah!

Basically,I have been busy planning for dear's birthday on this Saturday,13th June.
And we had the pre-birthday celebration last nite!
We had our first Sky dining at Mount Faber! It was so cool!
Pictures will be up once I transfer them to computer. :)

I juz came back frm PC show at Suntec.
I fell in love with the white Toshiba laptop!
I need to convince my mum soon so I can buy it either tmr or sunday! =x
Good luck to me...

And yes! I managed to buy Cecilia Ahern's "The Gift" at 20% discounted price! Wahaha...
Finally! And it shall be my companion when I am gng back to Batam next monday.
So I'll be out of town frm monday to friday next week.

Anyway,don think I will do the makeover package le...
I am like so broke now...
Haiz... Dono muz wait til when le... Myb i shud go back to checkout the price...
Then I shall decide... Hmm...

2009-06-05T15:28:00.003+08:00

Okay, another day to rest at home.
Fever is gone but sore throat is here.
Gaaa... Damn frustrated with all these...

Btw, I got a very funny video about How to Get A+ in SMU.

So good luck to me there!! Haha...

2009-06-03T19:21:00.002+08:00

Okay, I am feeling better than yesterday.
But I have swallowed another 1000 mg of paracetamol today.
Think I am going to swallow another 500mg of paracetammol before I got to slp tonite.
My day has been a boring day.
Eat, slp, eat, slp.

I realise I don have any entertainment for myself.

I am not like other ppl who fancy watching online dramas.
I am not like other ppl who fancy reading story books.
I am not like other ppl who fancy playing online games.
I am not like other ppl who fancy excercising.
I am not like other ppl who do things that they like to do.

Because I don't know what I like to do for myself.
So boring...

2009-06-02T23:06:00.002+08:00

Damn fever!
It keeps coming on and off!
I dono how many grams of paracetamol I have swallowed for the past 2 days!
Fever arh fever,can u plz go away?

World is so unfair. Will u alwys be there for me?

2009-06-02T11:53:00.003+08:00

2nd day of not-working = 2nd day I stayed at home to rest,to recuperate.
I still feel sick.
Gaa... I think I am too heaty again.
I feel exactly the same as the last time I fell sick when I was working at TTSH.
The fever is on and off.
My head is spinning like crazy everytime i got up from my bed.
And I foresee myself to have a bad sorethroat soon if I don drink enough water today.
Don't like that kind of feeling.

And today is my one of my besties' 19th birthday.
I am not sure if I could drag myself to meet her tonite at Bishan. =(

No one is at home now.
Feeling alone can be quite nice sometimes.
The feeling of no distraction around you just make u really think what you want for urself but not others.
Perhaps, I have been too busy to serve others, family, friends, and eventually,I forgot about myself.
Maybe it's time for me to learn how to say 'NO'.
My efforts would not be appreciated at all.
Sometimes I could even be forgotten.
Now I realise I am not as important as I deem to be.
So...Why do I bother?

2009-06-01T12:01:00.003+08:00

Yay!!! Finally I got my new digital camera!
Samsung ST50.

Bought it at Jurong Point's Challengerwith dear after had lunch with class at Secret Recipe.

Yeah!!!

Omg, I stil feel abit sick since yesterday.

I suspect it was due to the over-exertion of myself for the run on sat's nite.

Body is aching, feel warm, abit coughing, etc.

So uncomfortable! =(

Okay, I shall go and nap again now..

Btw, I stil cant get a $20 plus yoga matt... :(

2009-05-30T22:14:00.003+08:00

I should give myself a round of applause.
Finally, I went to run just now after back from College Day.
After telling myself to exercise since I start my relief teaching,
I actually went to run when my relief-teaching ends.
What an irony. haha...

Anyway, my right big toe still hurts...
Probably I overstrained my toes by wearing heels everyday.
Oh no... Less heels from now on.. =(

2009-05-30T21:28:00.005+08:00

Went back AJ today for College Day.
I went back to take my Distinguish Service Award (DSA) for Choir.
This is the plague that I got with my name labelled on it.

As usual, there was a refreshment for everyone after the collge day.
Didnt manage to eat much because I was busy looking for teachers.
Saw Mr Neo but only chatted for a while.
Then I went to look for Mdm Jamilah.
Finally caught Mr Toh in the canteen when I was about to go home.
Btw, Mr Toh is gng to leave AJ soon.
So I took a picture with him. :)

Count me lucky.

I was with Shona after Mr Toh left, and Ms Susan Leong, our Prinicipal came to congratulate her then of course she congratulate me as well though she didnt know me. Lolx...

But she was quite friendly, saying that she was very proud seeing all of us look so good on stage today.

After chatting awhile, she said she gotta go back to change. haha...

So we quickly took the chance to take picture with her!!!

Omg, it was really my pleasure to take individual picture with her ler...

Maybe I shud develop it out and let her autograph it one day.. :)

Anyway, She really looks good in that chi pao...

Well, I guess I am pretty sure that I am just going to SMU Business.
No more appeal le..
I believe I like that place more than the other 2 actually...
Since my heart told me that I like SMU since I went for the interview.
As for the worries of being in a more competitive culture there, I guess I just have to learn how to cope with it.

SMU Business, here I come!!! :)

2009-05-29T23:55:00.001+08:00

Met up with gfs to collect SGC.
Then we went to AMKHub! to fetch Eugenia from Litte School House for dinner.
We went to NeboCafe so we got to play Board Game for free there.
Played stacko and blokus.
And Shimin, I played stako with u,k?
Don't be sad...

After that, we changed game to blokus.

It was a strategy game lar..

Need to crack your brain to play...

And we all decided to gang up to block Stephanie as much as we could. Haha...

Poor Stephanie... ( the blue one below)

After dinner, Shimin left early while the rest of us continued with our shopping!

I bought a very cute short and it has 2 big pockects!!! I really like it... haha...

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2009-05-29T00:37:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow (Today) would be my last day of relief teaching job in ftpss.
Time flies indeed.
I still rmb how I moaned about them when I first started teaching them.
Yet, now I am leaving them already.
I feel abit bu she de oso lar...
Sometimes they can be quite cute too...
Haha...
Anyway, I am treating them extremely nice these few days.
Showing them videos and all...
Hope I have left a good impression to them during the my last lesson with them...
Okay, I gtg to slp alr..
Nitez...

2009-05-25T23:44:00.003+08:00

Great Singapore Sale is coming!
and I have already gotten a list of item to buy.
Oh my, the Majolica majorca eyeshadow is gorgeous!
Couldn't even decide which colour to buy because it seems that all colours are nice!!! =x

2009-05-25T22:33:00.003+08:00

It says that appeal is open today.
But my status to appeal is not available yet til 30th May.
I don't know what's wrong.
Is it because of me accepting other uni's course?

Actually, I am still not sure of myself.
Which is better for me?

P.S. I don't like your sarcastic remark. What I need is your support.

2009-05-24T00:39:00.004+08:00

It's so ironic!
The harder I try to put all the strings together,the further apart they are.
I realise when everything else around me was too busy for me to entertain,I was left wif nothing.
I felt so empty,so lost...
I didnt noe wad I could do for myself.
I spent half of my life pleasing others,bt I never been pleased by myself or others.
I feel so tired,so pertubed...

Weekend

2009-05-23T19:45:00.010+08:00

It's finally weekend!
Finally, I have done my markings and marks have been keyed into the system all.
So I deserve a good break now before I need to mug the 1N and 3N papers later as I need to go thru the answers in class on monday.

And I realy had a good rest for the past 2 days.
Since I have not been had a good rest since teaching.
Yesterday, I napped from 6pm to 9pm.
And I could stil sleep from 11.30pm to 8am today.
Then I napped from 2pm to 5.30pm just now.
I really pei fu myself. =x

By the way,today & tmr is the audition of Wo Yao Chang Xia Qu.
As I have slept away my whole day today, I am thinking of going there tmr.
So curious about it... Lol.

Sometimes I feel like I have been pretending for my whole life.
I feel like I am acting like someone that I don't know.
Or is it me whom I don't know about myself?
Do I know what I really want for MY life?
Apparently, I don't.

2009-05-18T23:38:00.002+08:00

Urgh! I am still in the midst of marking! =(
1 more class of practical to mark!
The worse is they gave all sorts of colours!
Purpulish-pink,yellow-orange,etc.
I am so amazed with their creativities sometimes!

And I MUST STOP SHOPPING!
Within 6 days, I spent $97 on 2 pairs of heels frm Mondo,1 shawl-like cardigan frm bugis,1 long sleeve cardigan,1 tank top & 1 mini skirt frm Cotton On. =x

I juz bought a bottle of Calcium Citrate +Vitamin D Supplement tt cost me $45.
I also juz made a long term investment.

Conclusion:
Oh my,I am so broke!
No more shopping for dis month! =(

2009-05-15T23:04:00.003+08:00

Thanks yuanyin for your reminder, I have called NUS for clarification.
I am allowed to accept SMU business first while appealing for NUS business.
So that would be my next move for now.
But in the case if SMU pressed me to pay the tuition fee after I accepted the offer and yet to receive reply NUS business, I will just go ahead with SMU.
Anyway I am going for the SMU business, the tea with Dean session at their library tmr.
Given their good marketing skills, I bet I would be swayed by them.
Actually I am pretty okay with both schools lar.
Both has its pros and cons.
So let fate decides for me then. Haha...

On the work side, my stint as a relief teacher is going to end soon.
Currently, I am just invigilating and marking papers.
Though marking papers can be quite tough too!
I just finished marking my my 2N papers and I have 4N papers and 2N practicals to mark.
I have to do marker's report, totalling up the marks, converting them to 100%, keying them into excel spreadsheet and lastly, keying them into the school system.
So pretty much work to do.
But I would say these are much better than teaching and screaming the students in class. Haha...

So I will be jobless during June and July.
I have not really decided what to do during these 2 months.
I plan to go back Batam with mum awhile.
Going back to see if my house has been repaired and newly painted.
Anyway, I feel like doing something special to reward myself this year as I am gng to be 21.
I would like to do a makeover photoshoot package.
But it is quite expensive to do it here, so I am considering doing it at Batam.Haha...
Crazy idea! But tt would be sth special, wouldn't it? =P

But stil all those doesnt take a long time.
So I still would like to get a part-time job.
A flexi hours would be nice.
But then it would be very difficult to get ba..

One step at a time

2009-05-13T09:53:00.004+08:00

A mixed of feeling is all I experience now.
I have gotten all the 3 universities replys.

SMU: Business Management ( 1st choice )
NUS: FASS ( 2nd choice)
NTU : Economics ( 2nd choice )

I am only considering the first schools-SMU or NUS.
I guess what I am gng to do is proceed with the appeal process to NUS Business while accepting the SMU Business first.
If I managed to get NUS Business, then I really have to contemplate over which school I really want to go.
There are really pros and cons between the 2 schools.
And that makes me so undecisive now.
Well, I guess I'll just wait and see the result for the appeal then.

2009-05-09T14:44:00.006+08:00

Finally, I get to see Ah-min on last thursday!

Haha...This proves that we are not jinx of each other ,kane!!!
Lolx...We met at Novena together with Steph.

After shopping around, Ah-min was craving to eat dessert.

So we went to Seoul Yummy.

I ate the whole Fruity Waffle by myself!

OMG, tt was so fattening!!! =x

Then Yuanyin joined us for dinner at Sakae Sushi.

But I didnt eat coz my mum cooked nice dinner at that nite.

So I end up watching them eating only.

Of coz not forgetting the different sixez of bowl that each of them ordered.

Here is the pic of Steph with her biggest bowl among 3 of them.

Alright, I gtg back with my marking!
Bye...

2009-05-05T22:22:00.001+08:00

Okay,4th yayness for today!
I treat my family to SAKURA buffet dinner at yck.
Wahaha... We ate until tummy couldnt take it anymore sia...
As usual,I like prawns! Bt I ate quite a variety of food too.
It was a nice family dinner!
All of us enjoyed it! :)

2009-05-05T17:52:00.005+08:00

I am proud to announce AJ CHOIR has attained

GOLD WITH HONOURS for their SYF 2009!!!

AJ Choir batch 2008-2009, I am just simply proud of you'all that you help us to get back our Gold with Honours that my batch lost it 2 years ago.
AJ Choir must continue to jiayou!!!
No importa la distancia

Today is my happy day!!! =)

2009-05-05T17:19:00.017+08:00

Thank God! I got 2 letters on the same day!

SMU Business Management or NTU Economics ?

Now I have to wait for my NUS letter before I really make this big decision of mine.

And thanks Bobby for your words and encouragement!
Of course, I have to thank the postman who sent the 2 letters just now.
Postman, I need your help to get me my NUS letter soon! =x

2009-05-05T16:32:00.003+08:00

Alright, after tedious planning, finally 5 of us managed to meet up at Central on last thursday!
Why was it tedious?
It was due to our busy schedule that each of us need to commit now.
So I hao bu rong yi can gather 5 of us.
And that is considered not bad le.. =X
Poor Shimin last minute got sorethroat and flu and she didn't turn up in the end.
Kane was so bad that he said 2 of us are jinx of each other coz if one of us appear, the other would not. =(
I hope it is not so...
I still want to meet ah min next time.k?

So we went to Manhattan Fish Market to have dinner.

So after dinner, we were thinking of getting drinks.
Andd we ended up in Coffee Club because we thought we could get 10% off total bill if we used Joshua's purple card. However, we were told the discount was not valid because it was an eve of public holiday.
Anyway, Thanks for the mudpie, Kane!
Though I hate you for making me fat! lol...

Well, I hope more meet ups soon ya?

Ah min and Euge, it has been a long time since I saw u'all last time!

2009-04-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!!
Why havent I gotten any letters yet?
Most of my friends have already gotten them!
Shit lar...
It's so scary!!!
When will my letters reach my house?
Postman,oh, postman, could you deliver it to me quickly?

2009-04-28T22:20:00.002+08:00

Tuesday! I am half way there for this week! Yay...
Friday is Labour day so I don't need to teach.
But then I got one-day pay less. =(

Well, one of my student from 2N1 make my day today.
She told me she feels I teach better than the previous junk teacher.
Though I know my teaching is actually quite sux, but at least I have 1 student that understand my teaching methods. Lolx...
Anyway, just 2 more days of teaching and I am done with all the teaching stuff.
Next month will be busy marking papers le....

Hmm... I should really reduce my shoppings le...
Coz mum need a huge sum of money to repair house in batam.
Thinking of taking up second job at nites or weekend to help my mum.
Hmm....any lobang for evening job, recommend me k? =x

Alrite, I am meeting my 3 girlfriends on this thursday for dinner!
I can't wait to meet them! =)

2009-04-27T23:35:00.003+08:00

Today is monday, and usually I have monday blues!

As usual, I was dreading to go to school in the morning.

But was excited in the afternoon because I was going to meet Janet at Bugis ( again) to exchange the dress that I bought last sat as I found the cutting was abit faulty.

Again, before I went to exchange my dress, we already started shopping.

Luckily, I didn't bring lots of money today.

So I only bought a present for my sis since I am gng back to Batam prolly this weekend.

On the other hand, Janet shopped alot again today!

But the belt that she bought was really nice!

I am gng to buy that too if I go again next time since my aunt also likes it. =P

Luckily, I managed to get my dress exchanged.

Lesson learnt in shopping next time.

Must try the new piece that the sales assistant passed to you!

Coz sometimes the cutting was just faulty. =x

So after got my dress exchanged, we went to my aunt's salon.

Janet wanted to get diamonds on her hair! lolx..

It is actually swarowski crystals la....

Let's see her hairdo..

Nice diamond hair, rite? If you would like to have one, just go my aunt's salon at Bishan! =)

2009-04-26T14:56:00.004+08:00

TOP for SALE!!!

Price: $19.90
Serial No: R026
Colour: Pink
Size: Free Size
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I provide free postage for this.

Feel free to contact me if you would like to purchase this.

Thank you.

2009-04-25T21:24:00.003+08:00

Wohoo!!! Got a call from Janet in the afternoon to ask me out for shopping trip.
Of coz I was so excited to have someone to acc me to go out! Yay!!!
So we met at bugis today,despite she has to work at 6pm tonite.

I would say it was a very successful shopping trip.
I got everything from head to toe! Lolx...
I just spent my one-day pay on my shopping today.
2 dresses, 1 pair of earring & 1 pair of sandals.
Wahaha...

Janet and I bought 1 same dress!
haha.. This is our second time to buy the same clothe at the same time.
We kinda behave like twin sisters... =P

Actually didnt expect to buy the sandals.
I was on my way home after sending Janet to work at Suntec city.
And guess what I saw?
Pretty Fit was soo crowded coz there is up to 70% sale was going on.
So I went in to look for the pair of sandals that I saw last time.
Omg, I was sooo excited to see that the sandals are going at just $19.90 instead of $32.90.
Straight away I asked for my size to try and made my payment at the counter.

Haha.. So happy with my shopping trip today with Janet.
Both of us got da shou huo.
Actually Janet spent more than me! lolx..
We shall go shopping together again next time! =)

2009-04-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

Finally it's weekend!
But I don have any plan for this weekend.
Sianz...
Have been having a frustrating week!
1 more week of stress to go... =/

2009-04-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

I feel freaking bored!
Frustrated with all the exploitations!
"sigh,welcome to the real world!",Mdm Loh explained.
So sad...

I wanna go out!
Anyone wanna acc me?

2009-04-23T00:48:00.000+08:00

Suddenly,I realise the way I spend my hols now is so meaningless.
None of my wishes r fulfilled.
I am such a failure.

2009-04-22T19:28:00.003+08:00

Gaa...I don't know what's wrong with me these days.
My things keep missing!
Last week, I lost my precious CASIO scientific calculator that has accompanied me since sec 3.
Today, I lost my expensive blue ink pen!
Damn it!
I just got the feeling some of my students are not honest.
And the worse is they are from sec 1 only.
I'm really sorry to find out if this is true.
But then again, i don't have any evidence.

And my precious vocl chord is going to break soon!
I screamed at my 1N class until I felt my throat was abit burning.
Scary sia...
I wont want to sacrifice my vocal chord just because of their naughtiness!
It's not worth it!

Okay, I just have to bear with them for ard 1 more week!
Just 1 more week, and they can just go and suffer to take their mid-year exam!!!
I can gurantee most of them would just FAIL!!!!
I know I am quite mean but imagine a class of 24 students, there are only 2 students who passed my class test!
But, I heard the other class of 1N1 actually have no passes at all.
But still, my test paper was actually set easier. So I cant really compare. =(

So far, my sec 2 class is doing well.
Only a few falures and 1 of them actually scored 24/25.
I am really happy for the student coz he is actually one of the most responsive and attentive in my class. =P

For my disaster 3N1, I haven't marked their paper yet.
But I guess they won't do well either, given their faces after the test.
Haiz...
I'm giving them remedial lesson tmr.
Given that there waas only ONE student who came for the remeidal, let me guess how many will turn up tmr.
Myb 5 or less??? =x

My 4N2 is taking their test on this friday.
So I won't know what will happen to them.

Arghh... So frustrated with all the things around me now!
I really wish April can just quickly pass.
Not that I can go to school without doing anything in May ( I actually need to mark their papers!), but at least I don't need to face them during their exam period. =x

While frustrating with my work, I feel like I kinda forget about my uni application.
No letters for any course offer yet.
Instead, I received a few emails from NUS BBA to tell us bout how good they are compared to NTU and SMU Business. Haiz...

I need to relax now...
Let's go shopping, girls!
*shopaholic eyes*

2009-04-18T17:12:00.010+08:00

Oh well, I was really down with flu on last thursday until I had to cancel my shopping trip with my girlfriends!
Instead, I ended up spending $27 on my doctor visit at that night! =(

But luckily, the very next day, I was well enough to meet my besties at Clarke Quay!
As Peiling was working, we decided to go and kacau her at her work place at Nectarie Cafe.
And Carling brought her DSLR camera!
Wohoo!!! Picture time!
The photos taken were so nice and good quality!
Let's see...

Testing the camera

Take 1

Take 2

Peiling was so busy

Trying my photography skills... =P

Let's continue.... =)

It was a nice lil meet up.

I begin to abolish my curfew soon!

First time went out at nite and reached home at 11.20pm.

Wahaha... =x

More meet ups soon!!! =)

2009-04-14T22:22:00.003+08:00

Gaaa..... Guess how many hours I worked today in school?
I worked 11 hours in total from 7.15 am until 6.15 pm!
Tuesday is my shortest day and yet I went home sooo late!
It's all because of the stupid exam paper that I have to amend for Draft 2.
Hopefully, there won't be much changes after this draft. Pleaseee.....
I'm so sick looking all the questions after today looking at them whole day. =x

So I reached home at about 7pm.
BUT, I was so tired that the moment I stepped into my room, I slept till 9pm.
I have 2 BIG ulcers on my tounge!
It is super duper painful!
I cant even speak properly these days.
So you can imagine how hard I have to pronounce the words properly plus all the shoutings in class. Haiz...
I am getting sianz teaching them.
The teacher's MC has been extended till the end of this month.
So I just have to frantically finish up , ~~rush~~ thru the syllabus for them to take their mid-year exam.

Alright, enuf complaining about my teaching stuff.
Otherwise, I would just go on and on.

On the personal side, I am sad to say that my third uncle's wife, Aunt Fera has miscarriged.
Those who went to Batam,you should noe her.
Her case was just a very unfortunate case, I would say.
She didn't fall down or carried heavy things on her own.
She just suddenly had a bad stomachache on the day before Good Friday, and when she went to the toilet, she actually saw her own foetus came out under.
I can't even imagine that she had to wrap her foetus using a plastic bag to send for a test.
That's how she lost her own baby boy.

Well, that's all the parts and parcel of life.
We just have to accept and let go.

2009-04-12T00:32:00.003+08:00

In a loving relationship, there are often hurt feelings.
We have certain expectations of our partner,
and when they do not live up to them we are likely to feel a sense of betrayal.
The truth is that if we put our hurt aside for a moment
we may realize that our lover was not even aware of the expectations that we had for them. These expectations are probably a carryover of fantasies that we have in our heart of how a perfect lover behaves.
It is OK to have these expectations.
However, if we expect our partner to fulfill them for us,
we must at let them know what we would like.
© Family Friend Poems

2009-04-11T15:29:00.009+08:00

Went out with dear yesterday.
We had lunch at Shokudo-a Marche style Japanese restaurant-at The Heeren.
I would say their food just taste so-so and the choices are quite limited.
But I like their Avocado Cheese sushi and their chicken wing!
Haha...

Avocado Cheese Sushi

Hotate Nabe

Chicken wing

After we finished our lunch, it was raining so heavily outside.
So I just shopped again.
Bought a pair of earrings that cost me $10.90.
But it was cute. Haha...

My new earring! =D

Then went over Takashimaya Watson and I decided to shop again.
Bought an eyelash curler and a mask. Hehe...

After shopping whole day, it was dinner time and we had dinner at Carl's Junior at Far East Plaza. But the food there was soo disgusting that I decided to write feedback to their suggestion box! =x
So we went home after dinner.

Basically I am broke now.
I have been spending soo much.
Eating and shopping.
Last week just bought a bag too.

It cost me $45.
Now I am only left with enuf money to eat in school for the rest of the week.
Haiz.. I guess I gotta learn to be frugal soon!

My new bag

Btw, about my stint in school, I just have to continue to teach.
My secondary school teacher asked me to give the students some time to adapt to me.
Another week has just passed.
But I don think there is any improvement for my 3N1 class yet.
On the other hand, my sec 2 class begin to like me.
So that will at least console me and make my teaching happier currently.
And heard that the teacher that I reliefed is coming back soon.
I am so hopeful that she will come back asap so I don't need to teach my 3N1 anymore.

Oh well, I am so sianz with everything right now.
So sorry that I didnt turn up at the " armyboys farewell" last nite.
I am sure we will meet again after ur BMT ya?
Take care...

I don't noe how to motivate you.
It seems that the more I ask you to do, the more you won't do it.

2009-04-08T23:08:00.006+08:00

So I am done wif SMU interview.
Well,I can say that I kinda screwed up the interview.

There were 8 of us and we were given an article to read before the discussion started.
The topic was about whether CLASSICS should be pursued as major in university course.
Aftr bout 10 mins reading,we were brought to their U-shaped table classroom to meet 2 Profs.
We were asked to place our name tag in front of us and they started to ask questions.
U cant imagine how competitive the situation were. The moment Prof finished asking a question,almost everybody put up their hands,fighting to answer.
As for me,I only managed to talk once on d issue but my answer was kinda lame. So I voiced out again when the profs asked us bout how we find their pedagogy learning style.So I managed to voice out twice only for the whole 30 mins of discussion. While others voiced out about 3-4 times except for 2 girls sat beside me.

As for the compre,it was bout "moral thinking".
I think I NAQ-ed all 4 questions done in 30 mins. I practically didnt understand the passage.
The essay was quite terribly done too,in 45 mins. I juz whacked the first question out of 2 choices given. "Which is more important for a country:a smooth functions of corporation or the existence of a vibrant,robust civil society?"

Aftr the interview,I feel that I actually like their environment to study. The pedagogy style might juz motivate me to study harder instead of skipping lectures. Their buildings r so nice and everything was so comfortable for me apart for the tension during the discussion.

Oh well,I leave it to the fate whether I will be offered a place in LKC school of business wif 7,000 applicants,1,800 shortlisted while they only accept 700 students.

2009-04-03T22:30:00.002+08:00

I got called up for an interview from SMU today in the afternoon.
I was asked to report at 6.10 pm on wed, 8th April.
Smart and casual attire..
I guess I have to tried every single piece of clothes in my and aunt's wardrobe. =P
Of coz, I have to start reading newspaper from today onwards.
I noe it's abit late. but better late than never.

As for my relief teaching, I feel like quitting soon.
In fact, I have already sent an email to my sec sch teacher to tell her that I am not suitable for the job.
I find myself extremely stressed over this job actually.
I can't handle the kids, I cant get their attentions, and the worse is I cant teach them properly.
I don want them to screw up their basic and fail their exam because of my incapability.
So now I just have to wait for her reply if she still wants me.

2009-03-30T18:25:00.007+08:00

* A very lengthy post* =P

Aha, I am getting lazy to blog these days.
Although my email address is as long as steph's, that was not the reason why I haven been blogging these days. =x
Well, it's my because my kuku comp is totally dead now.
So I don have a comp at all now.
As my poor cousin has JUST started his PW ( wahaha, I have gone through it le =P), so I just let him have the whole comp at night when he comes back from sch.
So I just have to endure with no-comp days until I get my own laptop in university.

Basically, the past week of mine was just busy with my new job-relief teaching.
Actually, I only taught classes last monday and tuesday.
Coz the students were having level camps and motivational camp for the rest of the week.
Believe me, I had crazy time within that 2 days of my teaching.

Monday
Taught 2N1.
As there was communication breakdown between the last relief teacher and HOD, the chapter that I was told to teach was wrong!
Having unprepared to teach the chapter of CELLS ( I didnt take bio at all! ), I asked them to do introduction ( which they like coz no lesson) to drag the lesson time.
But still, it was 2 periods lesson so I helped them revise the previous chapter which is on Particulate Theory of Matter.
So that was the end of 2N1 lesson. Phew....
I almost couldn't breathe after one class in the morning. =(

The, I need to relief 2E2 for just one-day.
Last minutes, I was told to teach them about electronic configuratins and ions.
Luckily, it was chemistry. So it was stil not so bad after all.

Then I had to stay back in school to prepare the next day's lessons.

Tuesday
Taught 4N2.
It was a small and lovely class. There are 11 students only.
So it was quite easy to handle except for a few guys that always pretend they never hear me.
But overall it was okay.

Then disaster happened when I taught 3N1!
I almost vomitted blood in that class!
As the class that I am taking over now was previously taught by 2 different teachers, so their pace of learning is totally different.
One half had already done the chapter of Elements, Mixtures and Compound, the other half had not learnt at all.
So it was a mess especially those students thought they were already so clever that they did not need to listen to yu and just spend their time talking away loudly.
Omg, u didn't noe how disruptive it was.
That disruption was still okay, I could stil tolerate them.
What I couldn't tolerate was all of them took me like a transparent.
All of them, including the other half that never learnt anything about this chapter yet, was happily doing their own things.
So I exploded at last 10 mins before the lesson ended.
I scolded them like hell until the bell rang.
And trust me, scolding people is damn tiring!

Wednesday & Thursday
Spent all the time in school to set the exam paper.
Except on wednesday afternoon, I went out wif mum and treat her to Ajisen.
Hehe...

Friday
In the morning,I finished up the exam paper setting and preparing lessons for the upcoming week.
Then in the afternoon, I went to work with mum at Thomson CC as there was a banquet held for Old Folk's home.

Saturday
I went for alumni choir's practice as they are having concert in June.
It has been a long time since I sang last time.
I felt like I lost my diaphragm coz it was hardly activated when I was singing during that practice.
Met the seniors and it was really heart-warming for me to see all of them.
So if time allows, I am going to the practice from next week onwards. :)

Sunday
Met dear for lunch then headed to his house.
It was my first time met his grandma.
Luckily, his grandma is nice. Haha..
Then I went swimming with dear at bukit merah swimming complex.
After that, dinner with dear, his grandma and one of his brother at Beppu Ramen Restaurant at Tiong Bahru plaza. And please, never ever go there to eat. Their food are soo not nice that I can say it's sucks.

Today
I almost had a war again. But not with the students,haha.
I was racing against time actually.
Because my timetable was clashed between 2N1 and 1N2 today,
I had to leave my 2N1 class after teaching them one period then rushed over to 1N2 class to teach.
Luckily, my 2N1 class was well behave today.
Otherwise, I think I would have fainted.
And thank God, the timetable has been changed.

So far, my most well-behaved classes are 2N1 and 4N2.
Hopefully they maintain in that way so that my life can be better.
Omg, remedials are coming soon! I would have to see them more often le. Haiz..
I gotta enjoy when I can now.
Wed outing with clique is coming soon! Whee.... :P
Now I understand why Shimin was always counting how many days to weekend. =x

2009-03-20T23:49:00.004+08:00

I had great time during these 2 days. :)

THURSDAY

Relief-teached 2 remedial classes.
It was like teaching a group of tuition.
First class, I had 4 students.
Second class, I had 5 students.
Lol... Actually these 2 classes are out of 11 students. These 2 classes are smaller classes than usual.
As those who came for remedial were those who are keen to study, I had an easy time to teach them. I think my nightmare will begin when sch reopens next week. =x

After teaching, I met Yuanyin for facial. After facial, we went shopping!
Each of us bought a top from Giordano as there was a 30% disc with min. of 2 pcs purchased. Hehe...
So I spent my entire salary of my teaching on that day. =x

FRIDAY

Morning, I was trying to set exam paper. But I gave up after a few questions.
I can say being a teacher is really not easy.
Need to prepare notes for the lessons and also practicals, teaching, giving them hw, marking, chasing them for hw, and setting exam paper. So those are my responsiblities for my next few weeks job until end of term 2.

Then, I met up with dear to go East Coast for cycling.
Rented double-bike, so I had easy time at most. hehe.. =P
It has been a long time I never cycled le..
Enjoyed the breeze there...
Only cycled for 2 hours and we walked over to the hawker to eat dinner.
Then took the super long bus 76 to reach my house.
Nonetheless, I really enjoyed myself. Wish to go there again soon! =P

Since everyone is talking about uni application, I am still left with SMU application.
I don't know how to write the essay..
Inspiration doesn't come to me these days.
Well, I think I still have a bit more time ba..
So I can afford to procastinate.. =P

Well, my life has been so far so good...
Just be satisfied, and I'll definitely be happy...

2009-03-17T17:33:00.002+08:00

Yay! I have done my NTU application too.
I have also sent out my supporting documents to NUS today.
Hopefully they recieved them and notice the error of my results in the system.
So now, I am left with appraisal form from 3 teachers and SMU application.
I must get it done asap coz I'll be damn busy from now on.

I went to meet Ms Tan, my sec school teacher today.
She passed me the text books and briefed me where I should teach from.
I am teaching science for class 1N2, 2N2, 3N1 (chem), and 4N2 (chem).
I might be teaching maths too but the confirmation is still pending.

I am supposed to set exam paper for sec 2N too.
That's really challenging sia..
And I need to read up all the chapters that I am going to teach and prepare lessons for them.
So teaching in class seems easy but there are alot of preparation work outside classroom to be done. That means I am going to be busy soon.

So my first time teaching would be this thurs, counducting remedial classes for 3N1 and 4N2.
Ms Tan would be sitting in, watching me teaching.
Omg, tt sounds quite scary... =X

Hopefully I get to enjoy my job as a relief teacher. =)

p.s. : 1st day

2009-03-16T13:24:00.002+08:00

Well, I don't know wad's wrong with me these days.
I can get really excited then I can get really upset the next moment.
Perhaps, I have not really accepted the fact yet.
It still pains me when I saw others with their fantastico.
I really wish I could do better.
But still I can't change the past, I can only hope for my future.

I have done with my NUS application.
But I have yet to send the supporting documents.
I gotta send them out soon.
Damn the system is screwed! My previous results are not reflected due to different IC no that I had in the past.

So next,I have to begin my NTU and SMU application soon too.
Gotta settle them by this week.
I might be embarking my career as a teacher next week but confirmation is still pending. So I will be busy after I got the job.

Talking about money, I really wish I can apply sholarship.
But please, I have to wake up from my dream!
My results can't promise me to get into my first choice, let alone get the scholarship.
Raggh.. I am so vexed aboout all these things.

2009-03-14T00:55:00.005+08:00

Happy 4th Year Anniversary!!!

Yeah! Celebrated our 4th year anniversary on 13th March 2009!
It was juz a simple yet an unforgettable date for me. :)

We went back to our first date movie place;Cathay Cineleisure to watch Kungfu Chef. It was quite a lame movie. Bt who cares when u watch wif ur love ones,especially it has been ages since we watch movie tgt. :P

Then we went to Clarke Quay to have dinner. Was confused in deciding where to eat. Bt due to our economic crisis (esp I am out of job now),we decided to dine in Kopitiam but we tried sth new i.e. Korean food. Haha...
Kinda spicy for my seafood hot stone bowl rice. Bt I managed to finish them all. Poor dear,he was sweating as he ate his spicy chicken rice... =x

Aftr that,we toured ard Clarke Quay. Took pics and pics, planned to practise our photography skills. But we gave up aftr that coz we don own a nice camera.
So we went ahead to Nectarie Cafe to look for Peiling. As her manager was there,we only chatted for about 3 mins. Then we continued our touring as I was enjoying my Haagen Daz Strawberry Cheesecake ice cream along the way. =P

We walked over to Raffles Place.
Found a seat by the river and we decided to rest our legs. Enjoyed the music frm a bar,opposite the river. We chatted,we photographed,we laughed,we teared,we reminisced...

Juz as I felt like I wanted to stay there longer,the time frm my watch told me that I shud go home.

When would I get the freedom?
Perhaps that makes me to cherish more wad I have now..

But still,it was indeed a lovely and wonderful night that I wish I could stay a little longer...

2009-03-10T22:09:00.001+08:00

Alright, I've been jobless for 2 days le...
It's okay. I am enjoying my jobless days recently.
Have been sleeping like a pig for these 2 days.

Yesterday, I went for an interview and I was asked to prepare a 15-20 mins presentation to teach malay next monday before she decides if she wants to employ me.
Kinda sianz coz it's not full time job even she wants to employ me.
I'll just be a relief teacher on standby.
Then, I went to NUS to crash pyschology lecture after that.
The lesson was quite interesting. It was on developmental psychology.
But the lecturer was abit boring. =P
Haha...

Today,I was supposed to meet Shimin at 11.30am at yck mrt.
But I woke up at 11am.
So I met her at 11.50am. haha..
We went Orchard together.
Went to collect my uncle's watch at Heeren then we had lunch at KFC together at Cineleisure.
As we had nothing to do, we decided to walk to PS to intellectual shop i.e. Times bookstore to buy books to read.
Each of us bought a story book and we promised to exchange once we finish reading them.
Surprisingly, Bobby is stil in Singapore and he called me out as he thought I must be rotting at home.
So 3 of us went to Long John, get a drink and chit chat there from ard 2.30pm until Shimin left at 3.30pm while Bobby and I continued our talk till 6pm to wait for Mr Tan Heng Wee to come.
Again, the topics were about courses and Mr Tan asked me to be realistic.
So I am really confused now. Should I stil gamble?
Raghh.. I dono... Maybe I just decide after I go open house next week.

Anyway, here are some photos that we took during the last weekend.

Have been meeting up with them last weekend.

Results day, bball, weizhe's b'd.

It was nice...

2009-03-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

So we've all gone through the day of 6th March 2008.
The result is printed out and there is nothing more we can do.
I can say my results have shown my best ability in the short period of preparation for A levels.
Compared to my prelims, I think I should really satsified with my current results.
Though I am most disappointed with my GP, definitely.

That explain the reasons why I burst out when I took my result slip frm Mdm Jamilah.
Another reason is I expect myself to get at least 2 As.
Yet, my results is ABBB/D.

I don't know if I have superpower or if it was just coincidence.
The second dream that I had about my results actually turns reality.
The dream that I said it appeared so real is indeed real.
I dreamt the exact grade that I get now and it was in the same order.
I find it quite amazing, really.
This is the first time that my night dream comes true.
Sadly, it wasn't a very nice one.

So now I am not sure if I can get into the course that I want.
Or rather, I should ask myself first, what course I really want to study.
I am soo afraid to choose the wrong course, and end up like hell in 4 years of uni and the rest of my working life.
Hopefully everything goes well and smoothly for me.

Have been out with clique these few days.
Friday, went to Cottage Waffle Place.
Saturday, went to Shimin's house to play bball.
Sunday, going to Weizhe's birthday party.

I guess we all need each other much now.
Stay strong everyone, we have to move on.

2009-03-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

Alright, I feel much better now.
Thanks for all the concerns. people!
Really appreciate it!
And the truth is ,I didn't go see doctor.
I self-medicate,k?
Haha...
I will recover soon!!! :)

So today is the day...
6th March 2008....
It's just few hours away...
Please, everyone, pray hard for me that I will get a reasonable result for me to get into local uni.
Thanks..

2009-03-03T22:34:00.003+08:00

Argggh...
I have been sick for around 3-4 days le.
I don't know what's wrong with me, my head,or maybe my brain.
Sat, I start to feel sianz sianz, like fevering. So I didn't go for bball at shimin's house.
Sun, I felt fine in the afternoon, but I started to feel giddy and have fever at shimin's house.
The fever and the giddiness were taking turns to look for me.
Finally, I ate 2 extra strong panadol when I reached home, and I felt ok already.
Mon, I stil felt kinda weak. Started to have a little bit of sore throat.
But I still went to work. Quite xin ku in the morning, but i felt better afterwards until I reached home. I suddenly had high fever again. So I went to slp for an hour, and the fever was just gone like that.
Tues,today, my sore throat got worse, I suspect there are ulcers inside my throat.
But I felt fine at my work place. Weirdly, I got fever again when I reached home.
Now as I am blogging, I still feel abit feverish.
Ragghh... I believe I must have been eating too much heaty stuff.
But this couldnt be so long, right?
Hopefully, I get better tmr.
I wanna receive my results in my best condition on 6th March 2008.
In case I faint when I see my lousy results in my school hall.

2009-02-25T22:24:00.003+08:00

Wohoo!!! I got Fish Leong's autograph today!
haha.. I really went to her Qian Chang Hui at Bugis Junction and actually queue up to get her autograph.
This is my first time queuing up to get autograph from a celebrity!
Kinda excited! But we were not allowed to take photograph of her on stage.
She only shaked my hand after she was done wif her autograph.
She was pretty! Her skin is smooth ( myb due to her make-up also), but I cant notice any pimples or anything on her face. Lol...
And I told her that I especially like her high notes.
She was abit stunned but then smiled to me.
Haha..

Anyway, she sang 别再为他流泪 , 属於 (her new songs), and 会呼吸的痛 ( her last album).
Her live was quite well sung too. =P
So with my not-so-fantastic camera phone, N95, these are the photos that I took while she was singing her new songs.

Oh, that was only second half of my leave today.
Hmm.. For the first half, we were supposed to sing at Top One KTV.

But we didnt make any reservation and this morning was already full house!

Omg, who would think today is a weekday and the KTV business is soo good?
So we had no choice but to go over Marina Square KBox to sing from 2pm to 6.30pm.

But I kinda lost my voice despite singing so few hours.

Too long never sing liao, no stamina. =x

That means I really have to go exercise to get back my stamina for my singing!

And of coz to lose weight. =P

haha...

I enjoyed myself today!!! =)

Thanks, dear! :)

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